Blank.

My head draws a blank. These past couple of months have been very confusing and not going how I had visioned it going. Love isn't right, goals, ambition in this city. Thought my life was on the right track but it seems like karma is coming around to bite me in the ass with all of my wrong doings. Everyone hits a speed bump in life right? I can put up a good front, but inside and behind this face, is sadness and confusion. I want to turn my dreams into reality, not sure how but I want to ambition I used to have when I was young and hungry. My whole life, everything has been handed down to me. I want to go get things on my own and be independent. Its time to change my ways and start becoming somebody.
There is no one you can count on but yourself. I need to start realizing that, I'm over feeling this way, I need to build my own trust in myself to get through it. No one will get in my way, and no one will hold me back from what I want. It's time to go to the drawing board.

Rant.

I'm pretty lenient about a lot of things, and I try to have an open mind when there are good reasons for it. But once it has being taken advantage of it gives me a whole different outlook on everything. I have a big issue on trust and if I have a gut feeling somethings is going down or something is happening behind my back, that trust slowly starts to fade away and it makes me want to cut that certain person out completely. I'm not one for taking advantage of. Fuck that, I think I've made up my mind. I don't give second chances, I'm a believer that you had intentions on doing it the first time why would I give you another chance to do it again? Bye.

Quote of the Day

 

"Don't settle for anybody, just so you can have somebody." Probably the most realest quotes I've seen today. Even though I'm ready and want a relationship. Doesn't mean I'll settle for just anyone. A person might just make me laugh but that isn't enough for me. I do have high standard and I do look for certain things in a man. It's not because I'm picky, I just know what I want and I'm not going to settle for anything less. Everyone deserves to be happy. I just want to be happy with the right one. 

Odd Feeling.

I woke up today in the weirdest mood. Not happy, but not mad at the same time. I guess I woke up in a "disappointed" feeling, obviously it was because of a certain someone. I hate those kinds of people who hit you up if they need something. One of my pet peeves. So as of right now, I'm over it. Cutting those types of people out of my life. I'm the type of person that can't help it to help someone. I should have a certain limit when it comes to that, especially if that person doesn't deserve it.

Quote of the Day

Being happy isn't about everything being perfect. It means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

10 Worst Feelings

Saw this post on Facebook and it's legit as fuck lol.

10 Worst Feelings:

1. Cheated on.
2. Overthinking.
3. Lied to.
4. Heart broken.
5. Not cared for.
6. Losing.
7. Scared.
8. Assuming.
9. Nervous.
10. Letting go.

I agree with every single one of them, don't you?

Good Morning.

When I woke up this morning, I felt relief and a heavy weight lifting up off my shoulders. I look at my phone and I have the greatest friends in the world texting me that everything is going to be okay. They're right. I knew that, but its always great to have close people by you to give you more motivation. I don't know what I would do without my best friends. They're the ones who make me truly happy, they're the ones who keep me together when I'm falling apart.. I love you, you know who you are :) This quote is everything, it definitely made me laugh for some reason! Lol! Have a great day everyone!